Friday, March 30, 2007
Hmmm...Smelling that??
The weekend. It's Thursday already..!
*jumps around*
Went for my class yesterday. Caught Danielle over dinner before heading home to MP with Chevy. Stopped by the petrol kiosk to fill up Chevy. There were two mamats filling up the tank with their minahs waiting at the side.
*breathes in*
Walked into the store to pay for the fuel. In front of me was one of the minah. Then the other couple joined the queue behind me. Soon, the mamat of the minah in front came in to get his hp from her bag. Cool! A couple in front and another at the back..! Sandwiched!
I tried to distract my thoughts. But to no avail. I just cant be in THAT kinda situation. Hate it..! No! Not hating for not having a mamat but just feeling awkward being around couples! I forgot how it feels like to have one! Heh. (you must be thinking ''Is it THAT long??")
Ustaz Drs Aa Gymnastiar said something in his sermon at the Expo last Sunday in conjunction with Maulid Rasul. Things happen for a certain reason. "Ada Rahmat disebalik apa sahaja yg berlaku".
You might be in the eleventh hour of a wedding preparation and the groom elope with another girl and get married in Golok! Why?! Maybe the parents of the bride has been praying to Allah to match their girl with a pious, sincere, loving & caring husband. But the guy who is about to be titled their 'son-in-law' might not be that type of person that they have been looking and questing for. This kinda totally uncalled for incident might result in gossip amongst the guests. But the fact, only Allah knows. He knows what is best for his creation. Be it the plants & animals, what more humans.
What he said was true for me. Here goes (just sharing a gist of my past)...
My first one was during the poly days (ok. not really my first one but the first serious one. geddit?) Right. We were together for xx months (it was more than half a year). Pretty nice fella. Caring & loving. Spoiled me like no one's business. Ok..not too much details.
Soon, I found out that he was timing me. It didnt sink in initially. But after much thots, then it occurred to me that he cheated on me! Yup! Yours truly is a bit slow. It was back then lah.
I cried like no one's business. "Damn him" I screamed inside!
Years passed. Heard stuff about him. And got to know that he dropped out of TP & is in NYP taking Mecha. Aint sure what is he doing currently. Schooling? NS? Selling grapes? God knows.
So. If I were to be with him till date, will I be happy? Here I am working, there he is doing...? It struck me that I need someone mature. Way mature psychologically/mentally in order for him to be able to lead me, duniawi & ukhrawi. Supporting wise, living in Singapore, sole breadwinner is not enough. Especially when there are plans to have more than one child.
Ouh. I scribbled soooo much just for one point. My point is...what eh?? *scratches head*
Ouh. So...My point is, to those who are in the same boat as me *welcome aboard*, dont focus too much about getting "him". Met Sis Diyana last Thursday. We chatted about..well..guys. We have decided that we shall NOT put it "Looking for The One" but more of "Looking for Him". Hahahaaa!!
Like what my Aunt always say, "Kak, enjoy singlehood while you can!" Just remember. Things happen for a reason! ^_^
p.s Marlisa, your bonus question really jerked me up the other day. 'You taknak buat anak ke??' Hahahaa!! Sis, siapa taknak buat? Jodoh belum sampai. Insya'Allah. Kalau ada, adalah. kalau takde, I redha.
Peace.
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